Wrestling with yourself

The Daily Drip

Every morning, I open my notepad and I don't know what I'm going to write about.

Sometimes I sit there and think about other things I've written about in the past, or about what I've heard other people say. I evaluate what I think about other perspectives or criticize an incomplete idea. Sometimes, like a few days ago, I sit and start writing, and then I start deleting.

Then I start writing again. Then I start deleting again.

As far as I know, there's no perfect process and life isn't boring enough that I can make sense of everything all the time.

So I start writing whatever comes to mind. Then I think: is it good enough?

Delete.

People want to hear about data and stories.

I start writing again: "Did you know that Starbucks blah blah blah . . . "

Delete.

People want to hear about emotions.

I start writing again: "6 years ago, I was at rock bottom blah blah blah . . . "

Delete.

Today, I think I'm writing about honesty and perseverance. The struggle is real. I wrestle with thoughts, ideas, and myself all the time. Somehow, I have to make it anyway.

I'm not sure if it's obsession or compulsion or some other demon.

Sometimes the hard part is starting. Sometimes the hard part is hitting "publish."

What's your hard part today? Is it different from what is usually the hard part?

Pro tip: if there's no hard part, you're not doing it right.